Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Waiting to dust off the glass sneakers...

Okay, I just have to say.. getting your wisdom teeth pulled really sucks!

I had my surgery last Thursday, and it actually went very well. It felt like it only took about 15 minutes from the time I sat down until the time I got home. I really don't remember anything that happened between all of that lol. I wasn't really in pain until Saturday. That was my worst day.

But it's now Tuesday, and I'm still hurting. I'm trying my best not to take my pain medication, because honestly, I hate taking medicine. Especially prescription medication. But I get to that point where I can't fight it anymore, and I have to do something. I'm wondering how long it's going to take for me not to not have pain anymore. It decreases as the day goes on, but it's just an annoying soreness.

The worst thing about my surgery and recovery is the fact that I haven't been able to run. First it was my foot, and then the surgery.. It's been over a week since I've ran and it's honestly driving me crazy. I miss it. I actually miss it. That's something I never thought I would be saying. I was never really meant to be a runner, or at least that's what I thought. And I still do not think I am a runner. I don't know how far I need to go for me to think of myself as a runner. Maybe one day, I'll have an epiphany and that'll change lol.

I plan on getting back into running though, on Saturday, for my long run. It's 4.5 miles. I'm not going to push it. If I have to walk a mile, I'll walk a mile. I just want to get back out there. I have to remind myself that my long runs are not about time. I think that's my biggest fight with myself.. I'm all about time for some reason. I guess the fact that I have to maintain a 16 min mile is drilled into my head. I want to finish. I don't want to get swept. I want to have time for characters and all of that. But it's not something I should be really worrying about. I have over 4 months to make it better. My time will get better. I also need to remember too, that restarting means taking it easy..and walking isn't against the law. Besides, I have to get ready for my next couple of 5ks coming up!! I'm so excited! :)

Okay.. off to take my antibiotics, and rest. I can't wait for Saturday lol.

Until next time my fellow Princesses!

oxoxoxo.

Monday, October 1, 2012

Time to fight my own Evil Queen...

Happy Monday! Happy 1st of October!

I can't believe it's October already. I absolutely LOVE this time of year! I wait all year for my hoodies and my uggs, and we finally have the perfect weather to break both out. :)

I've also experienced running in cooler weather. I really enjoyed it. I wore a long sleeve tech shirt, and it was perfect. I ran my long run on Saturday.. 3.5 miles. That's the farthest I've ever ran before, so I was pretty proud of myself. I hit 2 miles in 27 minutes and was feeling great. And then it happened. I turned around to complete my run, and I hit the wind. Hard. The 3rd mile felt like it took forever. But I completed it. I finished. And that's all that matters. Though at the time, I didn't feel that way. I was a little upset with my time, until I was reminded that I finished. Who else got up early on a Saturday to run?

I have to remind myself of that when I don't feel like getting out on my running days. Or on the days where my timing isn't where I want it to be. All that matters is that I finish. I mean, it's that simple. That is my goal for the Princess. My only goal. So why am I putting so much pressure of being this runner that I'm not (yet)? Why am I making myself miserable by judging myself on time? Time isn't going to matter to me in February. What's going to matter to me is that I have fun, I meet my fellow Princesses, I have fun, I meet characters, I have fun, I FINISH, and oh, did I mention have fun?

I always do this to myself. I put these unrealistic pressure on myself to be better. And yes, in the long run, it works. I get better. I push myself to do what I need to do to enjoy myself later on. I mean, I won't let myself go to the point where I say "yeah, I really don't need to do this.." and just slack off. I will push myself enough. I think I need to figure out where "enough" really is. Because I don't want to get myself to the point where I no longer enjoy running. And I will admit that Saturday, on my 3rd mile, I started to dislike running. Because I felt like I was failing. But my mind was only on my time. It wasn't on my distance. It wasn't the hill I had to battle going up. It was the time issue. I really need to get myself off of that lol.

I thought I realized that this training was really all mental back when I registered for the Princess. But as we get closer (just under 5 months.. eeeeeek!), I really am seeing that it's a mental battle. More than ever. I guess because I am counting down. And I am seeing how much time I have left. And it's more pressure on myself. I am truly, my own worst enemy. Hahaha.

On a good note, I am getting better at interval training. I'm doing the 1:1 run:walk ratio, and it's really a good interval for me. If I could only get my breathing down, I'd be set. I have no idea why my breathing has all of the sudden sucked. I guess because I was trained to breathe on a treadmill.. and going outside, is a completely different story. It's definitely not climate controlled outside lol. And especially Saturday, running outside, my nose was running, the wind was in my face. So it's definitely something I need to work on. I know that I'll definitely enjoy running more than I do once I get that down.

Okay, on to go rest my foot, since it's still hurting me. Until next time, my fellow Princesses. :)

oxoxoxoxoxo.

Thursday, September 20, 2012

In Need of a Little Pixie Dust..

I'm sorry I haven't written in a while.. between my birthday, Jeff's vacation, Fireman's Convention, and all of that fun stuff, I haven't had a chance to get on here..

Not that I really have anything to report. I feel really bad. Running just hasn't been priority to me, and that makes me upset. I'm doing this for me, to change my life, to accomplish goals. I need to just suck it up on the days where I just really don't want to run.

I did do a "long" run this past Saturday on the boardwalk while we were in Wildwood for the convention. I didn't run as long as I wanted to, but I did run a 12 min mile, which to me, is great. I also ran yesterday, but I have no idea what I did because my app wasn't working. And I ran today to make up for yesterday's app mishap lol. I ended up doing 1.03 miles in 14:53. My worst time yet. Not to mention, I've learned the hard way about taking rest days. I was in so much pain, and I'm actually still really sore when I walk. I know that had to interfere with today's run. No more back to back running trying to make up for skipping days, or stupid apps.

I am happy to say that this weekend, I'm running my own 5k. A friend of mine and fellow Princess is hosting a virtual 5k. All I need to do is run a 5k whenever I can, and then donate to Leukemia and Lymphoma, and I get a medal for finishing. I think it's a really great idea. She is raising money for something very, very close to my heart, especially with the recent news about one of my family members, and it'll be my very first medal. :) Meaghan is running with me too, so she gets her chance at a medal. And I know running with Meaghan will make me push myself. She's a really great friend, and one hell of a running partner. :) Stay tuned for a picture of my medal when I get it, and maybe even my time.. if it's good enough lol.

We're 4 days away from being 5 months out until the Princess. I have to say, I'm honestly really, really nervous about it. I'm afraid I'll get swept by the buses. I'm afraid I won't be able to finish. I know I need to get out of that mindset, and keep doing what I'm doing. I just have that beginner's fear - but I know.. like with everything else in my life, if I keep doing what I'm doing, and I just keep ... running (hahaha.. Finding Nemo moment there.. sorry lol), that I know I will get better. It's going to take a little time, and I know I have that time. So I really shouldn't be worried. I just need to get over this anxiety hump, and move it! :)

Alright, well, this is going to be a short entry.. I'm exhausted, and my legs are still killing me.. so it's time to go rest up and relax for Saturday. I hope I won't be away from here that long again. I mean, I do have my own 5k to recap, after all! :)

Until next time, my fellow Princesses!

oxoxoxoxoxo.

Sunday, September 2, 2012

Princesses look good in any color...

And THIS princess was rocking EVERY color of the rainbow!

I'm so proud to announce that I kicked off my birthday week and ran my very first 5k ever yesterday! What made it more awesome was that it was the Color Run! I haven't had so much fun like that in such a long time! It's running - not my strongest suit, nor my favorite thing to do. But this is a totally different experience, and one of the best I've ever encountered in my life.

This time last year, if you were to ask me to participate in a 5k run, I honestly probably would've rolled my eyes, snickered at you, and would've said "yeah, okay. let me get right on that". I never thought in my life that I would be a runner. I never thought I would get to that point in my life, that I would be able to say .. yep.. I did it. I ran my first ever 5k. And now, a year later, I can't wipe the smile off of my face from participating yesterday.

It was BEYOND amazing. The feelings that I had yesterday, and even today, are undescribable. I was nervous yesterday morning. I had emotions going every which way. I was happy, excited, and pumped. But I was also anxious, nervous, and doubtful. That was before I got to the start line. Once we started, I felt a sensation of energy and motivation.. all I could think was - you got this. You worked your butt off for the past year getting where you are today.. do it, have fun, get colored! And off I went.. RUNNING. It was an amazing feeling. I can't tell you the last time I ran outside.. for FUN. I can't wait to train outside more. It's a completely different perspective than running on the "dreadmill". I wasn't staring at ESPN, or a white wall. I was watching people as I passed them, and some as they passed me. I was moving. And nothing was getting in my way.

I did walk most of the 5k, because some of the track was just gravel, and as much as I wanted to run, I also wanted to finish.. without injury. If you know me, you know I hurt myself just standing up lol. (its true.. I've sprained my ankle getting up off the ground the wrong way from sitting indian style). So I walked. But I made it a point to jog/run to the beginning of every color zone, regardless of the terrain. So I did. And everytime I got blasted with a color, it was like a reward for running to my focal point. I loved it.

And I will say, I didn't run alone. I had my friend, Meaghan, with me, cheering me on and supporting me throughout the entire 5k. She ran when I wanted to run, and she walked when I wanted to walk. She kept track of every mile and let me know how much further I had to go. We even jumped the guardrail and decided to revisit the orange color zone for a minute or two lol.

When we got towards the finish line, I told Meaghan that I wanted to run through. I was ready to finally say I completed my first 5k. She said, "okay, let's do it", and I started running. She kept yelling "I'm chasing you.. keep going!" ..and I felt myself run faster. I reached the finish line, ran through it, turned around and hugged her. The feeling of accomplishment was so unbelievable. At that moment, I wanted to do it all over again. I couldn't believe that right then and there, one of my dreams had come true. Right then and there.. at that moment, I became a runner.

I've taken 2 showers since yesterday afternoon, and I still have color stained on my skin. And I don't mind it at all. I still can't wipe the smile off of my face when I think about yesterday. It was such an awesome experience, and they're right - it's definitely the happiest 5k on Earth! I can't wait to participate in next year's Color Run in Philly.. just a little closer to home lol.

I do want to thank Meaghan again for going with me, and for supporting me every single, literal, step of the way. I couldn't have done it without her. She is an awesome person, and I'm so happy I got to share my very first 5k with her! :)

Okay, well I'm off to get ready for Day 2 of my birthday week. I hope all of my fellow Princesses continue to have a great holiday weekend!

Until next time! :)

oxoxoxoxoxo.

Monday, August 27, 2012

If the Sneaker Fits...

Okay, fellow princesses, I have a confession. I've been slacking. Big time. (let the disappointment commence.... okay, time's up).

I haven't ran consistently in a while. Life has pretty much gotten it the way. Is it an excuse? To me, yes, it is. Between my car problems, my husband injuring himself.. and well, it's life. The C25K app is pretty much pointless to me now. I stopped at 4 weeks, and I don't feel like it was helping anyway. So I've decided to start training with the Galloway program, which is specifically made for the Princess.

Thankfully, we still have 6 months to go. And though I don't want to wait that long .. it IS Disney after all.. I'm glad I have all of this time to train. :)

I'm getting back on my clean eating, and even though I just restarted with it today, I feel good, and pretty energized. So as long as I stick with it, I think I'll do just fine. :) I also have a great friend who is running the Princess too.. and she is challenging me. BIG TIME. Which I really love. I need the pushing.. it motivates me more. I just really, really hope I get to meet her in person in Disney! :)

And since I don't think I'll be writing until after this weekend... wish me luck and fun! I'll be "running" my first 5k!! This weekend is the color run! I'm SO excited! It's such an awesome way to kick off my birthday week! I have to go to AC Moore and get a white t-shirt. I want to decorate somehow and put it on there that it's my birthday.. we'll see how it works out lol.

Okay.. I'm off to do some more laundry and start the evening routine. And I promise to post at least one picture from this weekend!

Until next time..

Hugs and kisses to all of the Princesses! :)

oxoxoxoxo.

Friday, August 10, 2012

A dream is a Wish Your Heart Makes...

..And I've made one of those dreams come true! I'm so excited and happy to finally say..

I'M OFFICIALLY REGISTERED FOR DISNEY'S PRINCESS HALF MARATHON!!

Wooooo!! There is no turning back now! :)

I really can't wait for this run. Only 195 days until I'm in Disney World running for my medal. I've been training harder lately, but only on my running. I haven't been cross training because my calves have been in too much pain. I should be starting week 4 day, but I've decided to take a day off from running and rest my legs. I wouldn't be worried, but there's a difference between muscles being sore, and straight shooting pain. So my legs get a Friday off. But tomorrow, I'm hoping to get right back on and start week 4 with a bang. The last 3 weeks of training have been pretty difficult, and I know I should actually be on week 5 or 6, but I'm okay with where I am. It's getting a little easier with breathing, but I'm still having trouble with it. I honestly thought I wouldn't be able to run longer than 90 seconds since week 3 has you running longer, but I did it. It feels good to know I've trained myself to run a good length of time. And though it wasn't the full 3 minutes straight, I'm still proud of myself, and I know I'll get there.

I'm also finally feeling the consequences of the treadmill.. it's tedious. I feel like I'm running for a lot longer than I really am, so I can't wait to get outside and start training. Of course, once this weather cools down and decides what to do, I'll start running outside. But for now, I'll have to deal with running.. well.. nowhere. lol. I think that the color run will be my first outside running session. I'm so excited to do the color run. It'll be my first 5k, and I think it's a perfect one since it's not really performance based, but more having fun. And I'll get to feel the sensation of being in a race crowd, and seeing how long it takes to start spacing out and whatnot. I think it's a great first 5k to complete and help me train more for the Princess.

The Facebook group has helped me so much with learning about the Princess, and some of the ins and outs. I feel like by the time I get to Disney, I'll know what I'm doing, where I'm going, and I'll feel comfortable in myself to be able to enjoy myself and the race. I'm really hoping to meet some of the Princesses I've talked to on the group. The support on that page is simply amazing, and that's just behind a computer screen. The way that some of the veteran Princesses explain how the race goes makes me know that I definitely won't be alone in this race. It's going to be absolutely amazing, and so awesome, and I really, really can't wait. :)

I hope Jeff is ready too. He's going to be my running man, lol. I told him I would like to see him in Magic Kingdom as I run through the castle, and then at the finish line. All he's got to do is take the monorail.. I have to run it hahah. Maybe that'll guilt trip him. Just kidding! But I would seriously love to see him, and have him see me really doing it. I'm hoping we'll have a video camera by then. It would be great to have some of the race on video, and to be able to look back on it and see how awesome I did! :)

Okay... off to relax and kick my little brother's butt in Mario Kart hahaha. Until next time, Princesses.. :)

oxoxoxo.

Friday, August 3, 2012

Just keep swimmi...err... running! :)

Week 2 Day 3 kicked my butt. It is getting easier with the breathing, but since I'm also cross training, my calves are killing me. Ah well, day by day, I know it'll get better. This is just the worst of it. :)

So... we're officially booked for the race! We're staying at All Star Movies, and though we never stayed at a value resort, I'm excited to see how it is. It's like it's official now.. there's no backing out now! I mean, I know technically, if we had to, we could cancel. But I want to keep in my mind that there is no backing out, so that I can't slack off on training. There's just about 203 days left until the race, and I keep getting more and more excited. Especially now, since we're booked, I can start planning our trip. We are planning on going into the parks a couple of the days that we're down there. I wanted to go to the parks after the race, but I figured that all I'm probably going to want to do is grab a bite to eat and hit the sheets for a little bit afterwards. Then, if I have the energy, we'll just go to the boardwalk, or resort hop, since we didn't have the chance to do it on our last trip. But until then, I'm just going to focus on the race itself. :)

I posted a poll on my Facebook page, along with the Disney's Princess Half Marathon group page to see what Princess I should dress up as ... and Snow White won by a landslide (not that big of one..just thought that called for a dramatic announcement lol)! So I'm starting to get things together for my costume. I found the sneakers I want, I contacted someone about a custom tutu being made for me, and then I have to figure out what I'm wearing on my head lol. Then after I shed more pounds, I'll go shopping at Dicks or something and get myself the running gear I need. Ahhh I'm so excited! I really can't wait to cross that finish line and have a medal placed around my neck! :)

I can't say it enough how happy I am that I came across this 1/2 marathon. This is something I'm looking forward to so much! My focus is on getting healthier and crossing the finish line, and my training .. although putting me through a little pain (which I love lol), my endorphins are going crazy. I'm energized, and happy. HAPPY. I love that word. And yes, I do have my bad days, my off days... but who doesn't? I just love how all of this is making me feel, and I will continue to keep kicking my own butt to keep feeling this way.. and then.. the biggest and best feeling of all - will be when I cross that finish line... and I'll finally feel accomplished! I can only imagine the overwhelming emotions that are going to come over me when I do this run. Just thinking about it makes me light up! :)

Alright, enough babbling for now.. I need to go finish the laundry, and grab my protein shake. :)

Until then, my fellow Princesses... have a great weekend! :)

oxoxoxo.